Ever have one of those days where you want to crawl into a hole and die?
11-19-2008, 01:28 AM
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Ever have one of those days where you want to crawl into a hole and die?
Not one of those days where a few minor things go wrong and you're upset, but one of those days that is so bad that you want to jump off a bridge, or crawl into a hole and die?
I just had one of the worst days of my life... In the top 3 of worst days ever... Ug, I can't share some of the stuff that transpired because its really personal, but I had to vent in some way... I had to take something called "ativan" which is a pill the doctors give you to chill out from anxiety... amazingly enough, it worked well so I may be able to get some shut eye... But I do NOT want to face another day... Blech
I really had to vent since I can't really talk to anyone in real life about anything, so I turned to my friends in BAIC. Sorry that I can't go into detail about anything, perhaps one day, but not now... It just feels better to vent even a little like I'm doing...
Perhaps some people cant share their stories of the days like these that they have experienced in their lives? I'd love to go into detail with you guys but sharing stuff like this on the world wide web isn't exactly the best idea.
In short, I hate myself and I want to die.
This Ativan rocks... I can't believe how much anxiety it took away.
I just had one of the worst days of my life... In the top 3 of worst days ever... Ug, I can't share some of the stuff that transpired because its really personal, but I had to vent in some way... I had to take something called "ativan" which is a pill the doctors give you to chill out from anxiety... amazingly enough, it worked well so I may be able to get some shut eye... But I do NOT want to face another day... Blech
I really had to vent since I can't really talk to anyone in real life about anything, so I turned to my friends in BAIC. Sorry that I can't go into detail about anything, perhaps one day, but not now... It just feels better to vent even a little like I'm doing...
Perhaps some people cant share their stories of the days like these that they have experienced in their lives? I'd love to go into detail with you guys but sharing stuff like this on the world wide web isn't exactly the best idea.
In short, I hate myself and I want to die.
This Ativan rocks... I can't believe how much anxiety it took away.
11-19-2008, 06:59 AM
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WOW!!!
That sucks. I would think that you could confide in your lovely new wife about whatever problem(s) you faced today. If you can't confide in her, then you have even larger problems than failing a test...
...and I hope your problems get solved soon.
That sucks. I would think that you could confide in your lovely new wife about whatever problem(s) you faced today. If you can't confide in her, then you have even larger problems than failing a test...
...and I hope your problems get solved soon.
11-19-2008, 08:18 AM
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Often times that doesn't even help. There are some things you cannot even share with your friends, not because of trust but because of what repeated venting does to a relationship - because of balance. There are those friends that are cut out to be those sorts of people, but even with great friends I have seen things turn sad. It's when counselors come in because they are someone that you can dumb all your crap on the table and go through it with them, but you will not see them in every day life and you will not see in their eyes their wonder about how you are doing with "that thing" you told them about.
For me, I have days like this where it seems like it starts with the smallest thing and within an hour or so the whole day has spiraled out of control. I went to a couple counselors and really did not help though I see how it could. One of the best things these days when I have sad times is to write it all down. Just pour it into a piece of paper or word, whatever you have to think less about. Save it/put it away, read it later. Getting all of your overwhelming thoughts down where you can read them all slowly and even comment as you go on simple steps you could do to solve those issues, seriously helps. For me anyways. One of my worst times was 7 years ago when I found out my ex was doing my "friends" and such. I lost my relationship and my "friends" all at the same time. It polarized who my REAL friends were but took away the people I had to talk to - even though obviously I should not have been talking to those people! It was a weird time but I really learned to handle things myself since I did not know who to trust. I find that when I have a bunch of things swirling around in my head it creates anxiety as we humans can only really think about one at once. Write them down, think about each one and you will be blown away how much it can help. Anyway, I hope this helps you somewhat....
For me, I have days like this where it seems like it starts with the smallest thing and within an hour or so the whole day has spiraled out of control. I went to a couple counselors and really did not help though I see how it could. One of the best things these days when I have sad times is to write it all down. Just pour it into a piece of paper or word, whatever you have to think less about. Save it/put it away, read it later. Getting all of your overwhelming thoughts down where you can read them all slowly and even comment as you go on simple steps you could do to solve those issues, seriously helps. For me anyways. One of my worst times was 7 years ago when I found out my ex was doing my "friends" and such. I lost my relationship and my "friends" all at the same time. It polarized who my REAL friends were but took away the people I had to talk to - even though obviously I should not have been talking to those people! It was a weird time but I really learned to handle things myself since I did not know who to trust. I find that when I have a bunch of things swirling around in my head it creates anxiety as we humans can only really think about one at once. Write them down, think about each one and you will be blown away how much it can help. Anyway, I hope this helps you somewhat....
11-19-2008, 08:43 AM
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damn, bro, that's one crazy story...
Daniel, time to visit hammy...
Daniel, time to visit hammy...
Often times that doesn't even help. There are some things you cannot even share with your friends, not because of trust but because of what repeated venting does to a relationship - because of balance. There are those friends that are cut out to be those sorts of people, but even with great friends I have seen things turn sad. It's when counselors come in because they are someone that you can dumb all your crap on the table and go through it with them, but you will not see them in every day life and you will not see in their eyes their wonder about how you are doing with "that thing" you told them about.
For me, I have days like this where it seems like it starts with the smallest thing and within an hour or so the whole day has spiraled out of control. I went to a couple counselors and really did not help though I see how it could. One of the best things these days when I have sad times is to write it all down. Just pour it into a piece of paper or word, whatever you have to think less about. Save it/put it away, read it later. Getting all of your overwhelming thoughts down where you can read them all slowly and even comment as you go on simple steps you could do to solve those issues, seriously helps. For me anyways. One of my worst times was 7 years ago when I found out my ex was doing my "friends" and such. I lost my relationship and my "friends" all at the same time. It polarized who my REAL friends were but took away the people I had to talk to - even though obviously I should not have been talking to those people! It was a weird time but I really learned to handle things myself since I did not know who to trust. I find that when I have a bunch of things swirling around in my head it creates anxiety as we humans can only really think about one at once. Write them down, think about each one and you will be blown away how much it can help. Anyway, I hope this helps you somewhat....
For me, I have days like this where it seems like it starts with the smallest thing and within an hour or so the whole day has spiraled out of control. I went to a couple counselors and really did not help though I see how it could. One of the best things these days when I have sad times is to write it all down. Just pour it into a piece of paper or word, whatever you have to think less about. Save it/put it away, read it later. Getting all of your overwhelming thoughts down where you can read them all slowly and even comment as you go on simple steps you could do to solve those issues, seriously helps. For me anyways. One of my worst times was 7 years ago when I found out my ex was doing my "friends" and such. I lost my relationship and my "friends" all at the same time. It polarized who my REAL friends were but took away the people I had to talk to - even though obviously I should not have been talking to those people! It was a weird time but I really learned to handle things myself since I did not know who to trust. I find that when I have a bunch of things swirling around in my head it creates anxiety as we humans can only really think about one at once. Write them down, think about each one and you will be blown away how much it can help. Anyway, I hope this helps you somewhat....
11-19-2008, 08:49 AM
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Keep your head up man. I always try to remember that a bad day today makes for a better day tomorrow. Hope you come out of all this on top, whatever it might be thats going on in your life. And, as already mentioned, take that new STI out for a spin!
11-19-2008, 09:08 AM
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Daniel,
Continue to strive in remaining strong. "No struggles, No progress. . ." Sometimes its situations like this, that remind us that we are "alive" Keep it up bro! Find me on AIM if you need to chat!
Continue to strive in remaining strong. "No struggles, No progress. . ." Sometimes its situations like this, that remind us that we are "alive" Keep it up bro! Find me on AIM if you need to chat!
11-19-2008, 09:11 AM
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Often times that doesn't even help. There are some things you cannot even share with your friends, not because of trust but because of what repeated venting does to a relationship - because of balance. There are those friends that are cut out to be those sorts of people, but even with great friends I have seen things turn sad. It's when counselors come in because they are someone that you can dumb all your crap on the table and go through it with them, but you will not see them in every day life and you will not see in their eyes their wonder about how you are doing with "that thing" you told them about.
For me, I have days like this where it seems like it starts with the smallest thing and within an hour or so the whole day has spiraled out of control. I went to a couple counselors and really did not help though I see how it could. One of the best things these days when I have sad times is to write it all down. Just pour it into a piece of paper or word, whatever you have to think less about. Save it/put it away, read it later. Getting all of your overwhelming thoughts down where you can read them all slowly and even comment as you go on simple steps you could do to solve those issues, seriously helps. For me anyways. One of my worst times was 7 years ago when I found out my ex was doing my "friends" and such. I lost my relationship and my "friends" all at the same time. It polarized who my REAL friends were but took away the people I had to talk to - even though obviously I should not have been talking to those people! It was a weird time but I really learned to handle things myself since I did not know who to trust. I find that when I have a bunch of things swirling around in my head it creates anxiety as we humans can only really think about one at once. Write them down, think about each one and you will be blown away how much it can help. Anyway, I hope this helps you somewhat....
For me, I have days like this where it seems like it starts with the smallest thing and within an hour or so the whole day has spiraled out of control. I went to a couple counselors and really did not help though I see how it could. One of the best things these days when I have sad times is to write it all down. Just pour it into a piece of paper or word, whatever you have to think less about. Save it/put it away, read it later. Getting all of your overwhelming thoughts down where you can read them all slowly and even comment as you go on simple steps you could do to solve those issues, seriously helps. For me anyways. One of my worst times was 7 years ago when I found out my ex was doing my "friends" and such. I lost my relationship and my "friends" all at the same time. It polarized who my REAL friends were but took away the people I had to talk to - even though obviously I should not have been talking to those people! It was a weird time but I really learned to handle things myself since I did not know who to trust. I find that when I have a bunch of things swirling around in my head it creates anxiety as we humans can only really think about one at once. Write them down, think about each one and you will be blown away how much it can help. Anyway, I hope this helps you somewhat....
I as well have those days (unfortunately more often than not). Some call it "negativity", "unhappiness"; I call it LIFE. Sh*t happens, that’s a fact. Some more to others and some less but the bottom line is how you deal with it. If you project this so called "negativity" on friends/others they may not want to hear it...the good news is they're not truly your friends anyways then. In my world; A friend is someone who will do to you as you would do to them.
Lots of stuff in life are minimal in the whole scheme of things, its just for the moment and will pass. Everyone has issues, hurts, worries, stresses, and mostly fears. This is what makes us the individual we call "self", it separates us from the rest and allows us to be or not to be.
I could go on for days with some crazy stuff BUT I keep it for me, as I don't care to burden most.
food for thought!
just my $0.02
-Noah
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11-19-2008, 09:34 AM
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Aw cheer up. The next day is never usually the same as the one before it. Things will get better, they pretty much always do. Life is all about change...for good or for worse. Keep your head up and look for better times. They'll come 